Yup. You got that right. Even though a lot of shit has happened in my life and I felt pretty bad about it, always blaming myself and the people involved in my problems, I realized that living on hate and selfishness would not do me good. It will only bring more pain and sadness, which I’m sick and tired of feeling and enduring. For once, I want to make my dreams come true and make myself happy.
Our house renovation is finished and I think my mom and my little sister will be financially stable now, which means I can finally save money for myself. I really want to go back to school, finish my damn major and work abroad, preferably in Japan. I know I can make that dream happen if I work hard for it. I mean, Cody did it so why can’t I?
I don’t want to live a life full of regrets. As the saying goes, it’s better to live a life full of ‘oh wells’ than ‘what-ifs’. I want to try my best to make my dreams happen and be happy. I don’t wanna be alone anymore and drown in my own self misery. I’m going to fucking change and be myself from now on. 🙂